So I would say “lolzomg, I’m sooooper sawry I haven’t written in awhile,” but that would be a (very annoyingly worded) lie. I’ve actually been writing a lot: Just not here.
In January, I decided to try making a little-known password protected blog. I guess I just decided that the things I want to think about and laugh about aren’t always things I feel the need to share with the world. I don’t want to use the word private, because that’s not totally accurate. Most of what I wrote, what I write, what I will write, isn’t “private.” To be honest, most of how I roll isn’t super private. My last “private” blog entry was about cats. The one before that was about buses. The one before…okay, well, that one might have been reserved for a limited audience.
But you get what I’m saying, yes?
Sure, the odd thing seems fitting to broadcast on the public blog, or at least it did at one point. But was I thinking about any sort of audience when I wrote most of what is on here? Hardly. It was more the situation of having an idea, or a moment, or a joke, or a feeling…having something which wasn’t quite tangible, but which I felt I could make tangible. Sometimes I did that through emails, or journaling, or some level of creation that didn’t involve wordworking at all. Sometimes, though, I posted on here.
And that was pretty cool. Random spurts of “HEY, this is how life looks to me at the moment,” or “HEY, this is how I’m feeling right now,” in between sarcastic .gifs and enlightening (but often forgetable) quotes. Comments on big girl shoes, on flighty definitions of home, on what I was learning, (and, more famously) on why people needed to chill the eff out. People said they liked reading them. No doubt I liked writing them. It served a purpose, and it served that purpose for two very dynamic years. It also kept me in touch with some friends and family, and helped me share some ideas with my second year media class.
So what’s changed? Rest assured, I still have an adventure every single day, there’s still never a dull moment. But in 2012, my daily ramblings aren’t major discoveries, they’re nuances. They’re comfortable adventures. They necessitate some standing background on what’s going on in my life. My funny stories are funnier when you know the characters. Plus, I dig having a platform where I feel comfortable throwing up a picture of myself with bedhead. This blog isn’t quite there yet. ;)
I’m home. I’m happy. And the private blog just works to share the details of that properly, with the people I love, in comfortable place.
…okay, so this doesn’t really need justification. It’s pretty clear why sending an uncensored update to a few close friends would be appealing, or at least occassionally more appealing than placing myself at the mercy of the public internetz. I say occassionally, because of course there will be the odd time where big girl shoes or major ideas or stupidfunny memes come up and I will of course still Shaunanagins-ize them (methinks this should be a valid scrabble word).
I’m just letting you know that there’s a new blog in town. Now I’m off to go watch The Hurt Locker, hate on mornings, plan a couple impending road trips, and just generally get back to that loving life stuff I’ve been doing lately.